French had put a condition on giving Henry and me a marriage blessing — if he hadn’t liked us he
could have said ‘no’ — but I didn’t doubt for a moment that he would agree. I was right. Even better, after we had travelled to Mahé
and had tea at the Palace, French offered to marry us in the cathedral; not
just a blessing but the full wedding ceremony itself. Henry really liked our
friendly local Archbishop and had no problem with the concept. He was one of
those amiable atheists who didn’t have an issue with anyone else believing as
long as they didn’t try and change his inner world. And he wanted his new wife
to be happy, whatever that would take.
I was happy. I
felt very blessed. I’d just wanted a church wedding but my ego was thrilled to
be married by an Archbishop in a cathedral, even if it were a tiny grey stone
building smaller than St. Peter’s back at home. So why was it that on the
morning of our wedding, I froze? I couldn’t come out of the bathroom, to head
out for the ceremony. Instead I just stared in the mirror at the image of a
white-faced woman in beautiful apricot-coloured dress, wearing those very pearls
that had been tried on by eager Chinese women and crowned with frangipani on her
familiar piles of tumbling hair. I couldn’t move, or think, or do anything.
‘Darling, we have to go,’ said Henry anxiously.
‘I can’t do it,’ I thought. ‘I can’t, I can’t.’
It’s easy enough, with hindsight, to say I had an intuition
of what was coming but I didn’t. It was almost certainly just pre-wedding
nerves and without family to flatter, comfort and reassure me, I felt very
alone.
I asked Henry to pour me a glass of champagne and then told
him in no uncertain terms to go away and give me a minute. He did.
Still I stared at my image in the mirror. I drank a glass of
champagne, remembered that I was presenter of live TV and radio shows and that
when the cue was given, you started the programme no matter how you felt. It
was show time. I went out to get married.
Later that afternoon, I went snorkeling. We didn’t have any
kind of reception so we were at a bit of a loose end after we came back from
the church. It was all a bit flat, to be honest. We spent some time in bed and
then, as Henry was sleeping, I went out into the warm, azure ocean to lie
dreamily in the shallows watching the fish. There were only patches of coral in
the bay of our hotel but it was still beautiful. The weather was glorious and I
let the water waft me here and there, feeling perfectly content. At one point,
an unexpected wave, probably from a passing boat, washed me close to some coral
and I put out my hand to ensure that I wasn’t scratched. I thought nothing of
it.
Henry was still sleeping as the sun set so I went to have a
bite to eat at the beach café, slightly depressed that it was that on my
wedding night I was dining alone. As I raised my burger to my mouth I noticed a
mark on my brand new wedding ring. It had been scored more than halfway through
by something incredibly sharp. It could only have been the coral but I had no
recollection of hitting it so hard. I was devastated that my beautiful ring had
been so badly damaged within hours of the ceremony. It seemed like a horrible
sign. I was too upset to realise that I had been saved from a half-severed
finger.
Three weeks later, when we were back in London, I did some
journalistic shifts for Capital Radio in London. My wedding ring had gone off
to be mended and I was wearing another, an antique wedding ring known as ‘the Warskett
ring’ in my family. I didn’t want to be bare-fingered so soon after marriage and
the Warskett ring fitted perfectly well.
While editing a piece for the evening news show, I put my
hand out to stop a tape machine that had just finished re-winding and showed no
inclination to stop. I caught the metal spool in exactly the same way as I had
caught a thousand others during my years in radio. That day, it cut a slash in
the Warskett ring that was identical to the one cut by coral on my wedding day.
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